Let’s Do This!

I am so excited for the 100 day project. I’m going to watercolor something everyday…whether it be the view of the Highwoods driving home, the boys playing, or just abstract, my art medium flavor of the month is watercolors, and I am in love.

I put myself in a box for so long, admiring beautiful art work and wishing I could create artwork too. As if artists were some special species, born with a paintbrush in hand and an innate knowledge of how to create. I just blindly accepted the fact that I could never create art like I wanted. What a tragedy.

But aren’t most artists just a person who followed their passion to create, and in the process, over time, got better and better?

So why not? Why can’t I be an artist? Yes, I’m a nurse, but why can’t I be both? Art feeds my soul and it just feels right when I’m creating. If all of my art supplies disappeared, I would still find a way to express myself, even if I had to use charcoal sketches with ashes from a fire. This make me happy, so why am I telling myself I’m no good at it?

Even if I’m not good at watercolors, I’ll keep using them, because they’re fun and the process makes me happy.

The 100 day project starts April 3rd. What stirs your spirit and feeds your soul? Do that everyday, even if it’s only for one minute, and share it if you want to. Or don’t. You might not like the first day’s outcome, but keep doing whatever it is that makes your spirit smile without realizing it.

There’s beauty in imperfection. Don’t compare what you’re doing with anyone else. Admire theirs, but admire yours, too. Comparison is the thief of joy! If you feel good when you’re doing what you’re doing, keep going!

We live in such an amazing time. I have been able to teach myself so many techniques, tips, and tricks just by watching YouTube & Skillshare videos. Instagram is connecting me with others around the world who share my passion for mixed media, watercolors, faith based art. Pinterest helps me branch out and explore new mediums. The sky isn’t the limit…there is no limit! If something speaks to your soul, you can pursue it!

Ordinary people are finding their passion, watching & learning from others and creating beautiful things. And they’re so excited about their passion they want to share what they’ve learned and so they create more videos and how-to’s for the next wave of individuals who realize, “Hey. Maybe I can learn how to do this…”

Life is too short to spend it playing Candy Crush, watching other people’s lives secondhand on reality TV! The 100 Day Project

For He so loved the world…

What would it take for me to willingly sacrifice my beloved son?

There are several people I would lay my life down for, but to give up my sweet children’s lives? Never…

This thought played through my mind, over and over, as I listened to the worship music and Easter sermon.

That’s exactly what God did…sacrificed his beloved son to give me a way back to him. He gave up his own son for me. This is mind blowing to think about, but then to realize he did this, knowing ahead of time that I would not only mess up over and over, but that I would turn away from him completely….why would God love me that much? Am I really worth that much to him?

How amazing…but how can I be so sure there is a God? And why do I believe this version of God, (with Jesus)?

I wasn’t really raised going to church. My parents believe in God and try to be good people, but we never prayed before eating, etc. I remember being embarrassed when I ate at my friend, Cori’s house, for the first time. The dinner looked delicious and as I took a bite, her dad gently led us in prayer. I was a little mortified, but I remember chewing my food and thinking, “Well, God, I’m grateful for this food and I know already how good it is…”

God definitely had his sights on me, even as a young girl. The faith of a child is one of the purest things on Earth and I had no doubt he was there. He placed people in my life to guide my way–my godmother: Norma; the best friend I desperately prayed for: Cori & her beautiful family, my Uncle Mark & Aunt Brenda, just to name a few. My spirit knew there was something beyond our temporary world and I grew closer to God through them.

But as I got older I couldn’t wrap my scientific brain around the plausibility of certain things when it comes to God and Jesus and the Bible. The logical part of me wanted concrete evidence, absolute proof that there is a God and the Bible is true beyond a shadow of a doubt. There’s a great book called The Case for Christ that is worth reading if you can identify with these thoughts…it’s written by a lawyer who set out to debunk the Bible and ended up becoming one of its biggest supporters.

Eventually I turned away from God. It wasn’t a sudden decision. It was missing church once, then here and there, then drifting away from my church family after separating from my ex, leaving my Bible untouched for weeks at a time, days passing by without a single thought of God. I seemed to be doing just fine on my own, without him. Until 13 years later, I wasn’t fine…slowly drinking myself into oblivion to fill the gnawing emptiness while desperate thoughts of being better off dead wrapped around me like a straitjacket (link goes to my first blog post, explaining this a little more…).

Yet he came through for me again through my art and a chance encounter with a friend from church long ago. He was right there, waiting patiently for me to realize how much I truly needed him.

I know how I feel with him in my life and now I also know how I feel without him. Concrete proof doesn’t matter to me anymore.

All I know is I am empty without him, and that’s proof enough for me.